2014

She is one of those people that just gets it. She knows all my blunders and may have even participated in a few but doesn’t judge. Partners in crime and reality.

I remember the day I went to visit her while her mom was in town. I offered her a beer and she declined. I said, “What are you… pregnant?”

She was. I wish I shoved my own baggage deep down.

I regret to this day my response… I didn’t say congratulations right away. I was shocked.

I immediately panicked. I guess I just pictured the two of us carrying on as always. In my mind I thought she was moving on from me. I wasn’t ready for her to leave me.

So selfish…

The day comes. I got to the hospital as quickly as I could. Every part of me was terrified. I hated seeing her in pain and there was nothing I could do. Would today change our friendship forever?

Then there were two.

I realize now that this new little person isn’t a saboteur he’s an extension of one of the best people I know.

I should have trusted her and that she wasn’t planning an escape. I should have trusted that she knew what she was doing. I should have trusted our friendship.

I do now.